Aug 7, 2020
Blindness
I forgot my reading glasses at home today. I am having to compensate by zooming in on my computer as I write here in Starbucks.
I love writing; a new hobby of mine. And though it takes a little out of me, it always fills me up.
It’s not the same today though. Now more effort is required than if I had simply remembered. And what is normally an absolute joy, has been invaded by toil’s torment.
I have gotten used to their comforting assurance, learning to lean on their lenses.
Remembering to prioritize the most important things, is a skill I am endlessly pursuing.
I find this applies to all areas of life, not just vision.
If I want each day to go well, regardless of what comes at me, I know what I must first do.
I must choose correctly each morning.
It doesn’t guarantee I will sail through the day, but it does guarantee I won’t be painfully burning up unnecessary energies on otherwise enjoyable and easy tasks.
I am a believer, a follower of Christ; a Christian.
Nowhere else in life have I encountered such unconditional love, such peace in the face of tragedy, and such hope for tomorrow, than in my relationship with Jesus.
I am not a church goer. I listen to scriptures on audio bible, watch sermons on YouTube, and spend time with God gaining direction for each day.
My walk with Jesus is anything but perfect, yet I am somehow perfectly loved.
The highest call in life is walking in true love, a task which on my own I am completely incapable of achieving, and so I turn to God each day for the help I need.
I have recently relied a little more on him as of late, whilst facing a couple deaths, and some serious illnesses.
It still amazes me how I am completely carried through these tragedies; such joy and peace midst chaos.
Even on the days I fail to put my relationship with God first, I am still covered.
But there is a noticeable difference on the days when I start my morning right.
This morning I felt God leading me to do some declarations of his promises outloud over myself, before I set out for the day.
I took 5 minutes and spoke his promises over myself.
I felt a washing taking place, a cleansing of my eyes from residue left over from yesterday.
My day is far better when I start with those truths, for they magnify what I need to see most.
Some tasks will always cost us a little something, and some circumstances will always deeply impact our hearts, but when our eyes are fitted with what we need, life won’t be easy.
But life will be clearer.
